as_damaged | ☤ twenty-six

Entry tags:

☤ twenty-six

well, why not.

if you know something good is bound to end badly, is it still worth beginning? when does happiness outweigh the risk, the loss?

[ooc; all Cameron's replies will (ofcourse) be anonymous until midnight at which point they will revert to being hers. For my own ease of recordkeeping: courier replies were anon, anything in regular font is written post-midnight. IF FOR ANY REASON YOU WANT TO BACKDATE, please put pre-midnight on your thread <3]

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

Yes. And I really think you'll know when it's worth it, because you'll do it even if it's doomed. Plus, there's always a small chance things won't end badly.

Have you ever done it? I know they say, better to have loved and lost, but saying it and living it are two different things.

I'd like to believe I'm wrong, but I'm finding it hard to be optimistic.

I suppose you could say I have, in a roundabout way. It would always be worth it, for me. My life was always dangerous, but as long as I could have good things in it, I was fine.

Maybe I should take the fact that I am still considering it as a good sign. Or, maybe I should take the fact that I haven't decided as a bad one.

Good things can be as dangerous as bad ones. Maybe moreso.

Good things are always worth fighting for. I don't think dangerous really enters into it. If you can be happy, even for a little while, I think it's worth it. And I think the fact you're thinking about it is a good sign.

But happiness for a little while, versus being unhappy for a long time, after... I can't help but wonder, if missing the highs but avoiding the lows would be healthier.

Then again...

You might be right.

I know it's kind of scary, but if you're expecting to be unhappy all the time, then that's what's going to happen. You have to believe you can make it work, somehow- even if that's just a small part of you. I've never regretted my choices, not the important ones. I only regret not being strong enough to see the last one through.

That isn't exactly what I expect, I just... can't help thinking something awful is going to happen, at some point.

That's good to know. I don't think I would regret this, I'm just-- not certain I can do it.

Ah, the good ol' sense of foreboding. I'm pretty used to that one, too. I'm sorry you have to deal with it, though- wish I could say it goes away. Well, either you will or you won't. It'll probably fall to the best decision for you, anyway. But if it were me? I would go for it.

I think that's too much to hope for, yeah.

There really isn't a 'best' decision-- we can never know what might have happened. But... it helps, thank you.

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only