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[as_damaged]

I have my husband's sperm. Frozen.

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[deadlesbian.livejournal.com]

...why?

[as_damaged]

Because he'd been diagnosed with terminal cancer. Faced with the certainty that he'd die before we could conceive children, we decided to freeze it. In case I never found anyone else, in case I ever wanted a child.

[deadlesbian.livejournal.com]

Wow, talk about a kid who gets to start life with a bit of emotional trauma.

...no offense. I mean, if you wanted the kid, I'm not saying you shouldn't.

[as_damaged]

While I don't think it's ideal, many single mothers do an exemplary job of raising their children. I loved him. I still do. I'd rather have the opportunity, even if I never take it, than have him entirely gone.

[deadlesbian.livejournal.com]

Now that I understand. Hell, I really understand that.

I'm sorry.

[as_damaged]

Thank you. It's all right, though; it doesn't really bother me to talk about it. It hurts-- I suppose it always will, but not so much that I can't stand to think of it.

I suppose I must be cursed, to be going on about it like this.

[deadlesbian.livejournal.com]

Probably very personal. So I won't pry.

But you're not the only one in this place that has lost someone like that. Just... in case that helps.

[as_damaged]

If you have as well, I'm deeply sorry.