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☤ forty-five

If--

It doesn't prove anything either way.

I always try to talk myself out of saying anything when this happens, but the truth is I think it's kind of nice. Horrifying, more often than not, but-- there's always a chance of seeing someone familiar.

[ooc; as always~ Cam is season 3, I would prefer to minimize explicit spoilers on recent canon but she can forget whatever she needs to ;) Please no duplicates of housecast unless approved by the concerned muns. etc etc. backdating-friendly forever.]

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[Thinking she's broken him would, to Chase, be the only thing worse than her idea that House did. He's not broken. Damaged, but they all of them were damaged before. And they might all be unfixable, but there can be ways of learning to live with the cracks.]

I've lived it, Allison. That's not gossip, it's nostalgia. [He teases her, sets down his glass and half turns to better face her.] What would you prefer?

I'm not sure.

[She laughs a little, sipping her wine and meeting his eyes.] Gossip's likelier to be pleasant conversation, but sometimes I feel like I know too much. That I'm going to let something slip-- to you, to House and Wilson. [Cameron tilts her head and sets her glass aside too, going a bit quieter.] You don't remember while you're at home, do you?-- you can't, it would create a paradox.

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I can't because if I did, I'd have checked myself into Mayfield. [Chase reasons this with paced tones, not quite answering her question. No, he doesn't have the weight of this place hanging over him all the time, it would make ordinary life impossible, but at the same time, there's something in the back of his mind...

He rests his hands, clasped, in his lap, sighing softly.]

I don't remember everything right now, either. I don't... remember leaving. I can remember being pretty sure I never would.

[It's not that the comment doesn't make sense without context; but there's something about the way he says it that makes her wonder. But peace of mind is difficult to come by and she's starting to learn not to ask questions if she's not sure she wants the answer.]

Would I sound completely paranoid if I guessed that it's because the City doesn't want you to be able to tell me?

[He snorts and ducks his head, blinking down at the worn indigo denim of his jeans before looking up again, lips quirked into a lopsided smile.]

While you're here, I'd say it's smart to be paranoid. There I was thinking it probably had something to do with me.

It can't be healthy, though. Attributing motives and measures to a place.

[Still, she smiles back.]

A place that screws with you on a daily basis. Or whatever's running it. It might be pushing it to attribute malevolence to the bricks and mortar.

[Teasing her means he doesn't have to tell her about his own paranoiac leanings. The memory-fogged suspicion that he never left at all. But who'd dream up such a god-awful future for themselves, really? Assume they deserve it?

...Well, point made and taken.]

Blame the so-called deities, I guess? [The word and the thought always leaves a sour taste in her mouth.] It's as likely an explanation as anything else.

[She can vouch for his presence, twice over; but as for his eventual absence... Time means so little here, there's no way to prove he isn't just coming back from the City's future. What an unpleasant thought; but Cameron doesn't entertain it for long, if only because she's convinced that here, forewarned would be forearmed.]

Rudy Miller-- if you remember him? Claims to know when he'll leave, but he won't tell.

Rudy Miller's not quite as bright as he'd like people to give him credit for.

[There's someone else that could apply to, at least as he was three years ago. Chase nods.]

If he knows when he's leaving, he won't need to try again before he's sure to succeed. Watch for failed attempts before you believe anything he feeds you.

He said he's concerned it would compromise his free will. [She looks aside a moment, considering, her chin lifted. This is something Cameron spends a lot of time working out-- the finer points of the time-travel paradox. As though she doesn't have enough to occupy her time here.] I tend to agree with you; and even if he does remember, there's no guarantee it's correct. It wouldn't be the first time a curse has manufactured memories.

[A grin breaks out, sudden and unexpected, and she casts a sly glance at him.] Since I'm pretty sure I've never studied undersea medicine.

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☤ forty-five

it seems that all my bridges have been burned, you say that's just how this grace thing works

it seems that all my bridges have been burned, you say that's just how this grace thing works

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it seems that all my bridges have been burned, you say that's just how this grace thing works

it seems that all my bridges have been burned, you say that's just how this grace thing works