[There's no comparison between the two; sudden loss isn't any better or any worse, in her estimation, than the slow inevitability of a terminal disease. Angela lost someone she clearly, truly cared about; it's a point of similarity and sympathy. Maybe she'd feel better if she could hate the other woman, but she doesn't. She can't.]
I don't have any right to resent you.
[That's pure truth. She does, a little; though she's trying not to dwell on it, not to let her doubts get the better of her. This calls for another polite lie, though; things aren't that simple. Chase is the first person she's been attracted to in a long time that she ever had a chance with; and it took time she hopes she won't have here before she became comfortable enough to admit any degree of attraction to him, much less affection. Dating felt like a betrayal of sorts, and though she'd tried here and there over the years, her relationships always died before they began. Falling for men who couldn't or wouldn't return her interest became a safe habit; you can't lose something you don't have, or feel guilty about something you haven't done.]
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[There's no comparison between the two; sudden loss isn't any better or any worse, in her estimation, than the slow inevitability of a terminal disease. Angela lost someone she clearly, truly cared about; it's a point of similarity and sympathy. Maybe she'd feel better if she could hate the other woman, but she doesn't. She can't.]
I don't have any right to resent you.
[That's pure truth. She does, a little; though she's trying not to dwell on it, not to let her doubts get the better of her. This calls for another polite lie, though; things aren't that simple. Chase is the first person she's been attracted to in a long time that she ever had a chance with; and it took time she hopes she won't have here before she became comfortable enough to admit any degree of attraction to him, much less affection. Dating felt like a betrayal of sorts, and though she'd tried here and there over the years, her relationships always died before they began. Falling for men who couldn't or wouldn't return her interest became a safe habit; you can't lose something you don't have, or feel guilty about something you haven't done.]