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as_damaged) wrote2008-02-04 04:38 pm
as_damaged) wrote2008-02-04 04:38 pm
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☎ voicemail
| ☎ voicemail ☎ text message ☞ action |
[ooc: you know the drill, if you need her and there's no recent post &c &c. whatever. ♥♥♥]
[ooc: you know the drill, if you need her and there's no recent post &c &c. whatever. ♥♥♥]
☞ action
[There's no comparison between the two; sudden loss isn't any better or any worse, in her estimation, than the slow inevitability of a terminal disease. Angela lost someone she clearly, truly cared about; it's a point of similarity and sympathy. Maybe she'd feel better if she could hate the other woman, but she doesn't. She can't.]
I don't have any right to resent you.
[That's pure truth. She does, a little; though she's trying not to dwell on it, not to let her doubts get the better of her. This calls for another polite lie, though; things aren't that simple. Chase is the first person she's been attracted to in a long time that she ever had a chance with; and it took time she hopes she won't have here before she became comfortable enough to admit any degree of attraction to him, much less affection. Dating felt like a betrayal of sorts, and though she'd tried here and there over the years, her relationships always died before they began. Falling for men who couldn't or wouldn't return her interest became a safe habit; you can't lose something you don't have, or feel guilty about something you haven't done.]
☞ action
The computer scan is done and Angela silently sets the system to reboot and starts preparing to leave for the second time today. The air doesn't necessarily feel clear, but at least there's a minor break in the fog. The rest requires times.]
I meant what I said. Take a chance. Go with the flow. Break the rules. Have fun with it. If you're too busy worrying about what the end is, you'll miss everything in between. Forever is a long time and you might not even live that long. Nobody has that long.
[Back on the path through the exit, Angela nods and smiles slightly to Cameron. She could walk out right now and never speak to the other woman again, but there's just one last thing Angela needs to say before the door closes behind her.]
And don't be too hard on Robert. This wasn't easy for him either.
[Because now, when she gets home, Angela has to deal with him and his intended plan for tonight. Somebody will be upset to hear that this meeting ruined her light mood and she'll have to take a raincheck on things. Talk about not being easy.]