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[He raises an eyebrow at the offer, not starving but definitely not ready to look a gift horse in the mouth.]

I could eat. You know Eden cooks for House every night? Huge Irish stews or soups or something. I keep wondering if he thinks he got high and ordered a maid service.

[He scoops up his coffee cup, hand making a brief detour to rub between Gray's ears, and inhales suspiciously.]

Or a babysitter. We could eat out if you like.

I doubt anyone could mistake Eden for a maid.

[She's disinclined to give any ground, and certainly she doesn't want him to think she's letting him take her out to eat. So that suggestion earns a little shrug. At least she's not kicking him out. Cue a counteroffer.]

I have stuff for sandwiches.

[The knockback bounces right off him today. There's a shrug, a nod and a smile.]

Sounds good.

[He hasn't even complained about the coffee, although it tastes like he's drinking concentrated hippie juice.]

She's had a rough time of it. Eden. I still don't get this thing with her and House.

I have no idea.

[Honestly, seeing House getting along with anyone (other than, say, Wilson,) is always a bit of a shock. Cameron heads back to the kitchen in search of food.]

I think he's amused by her. Why she puts up with him...

[She trails off, preoccupied with her task, though the tone implies her unseen shrug. After a moment she returns, platter full of sandwich stuff in hand. Placing it on the coffee table, she takes a seat, tends to her own cup.]

She likes working at the Clinic, I think. I guess that's part of it?

Don't think it's that. My guess is she's looking for a father figure who'll only verbally shoot her down.

[Pot to kettle: you're black. That aside, Chase is impressed with Cameron's speed at hostess work, one step ahead of his intended offer of help. He puts himself together a selection of cold cuts and vegetables, the arrangement precise.]

I'm more interested in why he indulges it. Not like him to pet the dog.

[No this is not jealousy. Well, maybe a little.]

[Quick enough that one might question how spontaneous her spontaneous offer was. She raises an eyebrow at Chase's speculation, setting her cup back down, leaning forward to make a sandwich of her own.]

He wouldn't, if he agreed with you.

[Not that she's any more certain than he is.]

[Another shrug of his shoulders, a dismissive screwing up of his face and even that thought is let go. Bringing work home is inevitable in it's way. Bringing House home is a step too far. Especially on a good day. He stretches his legs out under the table, taking the chance to look around.]

I see you're still living with one empty room.

I haven't seen a reason to change that.

[Chin lifted, there's a shade of familiar defiance for defiance's sake in her eyes.]

[There's nothing challenging in the look returned, though there is, hidden carefully, a trace of concern. He looks away to disguise it better.]

You were willing to let me stay, there has to be somebody you could tolerate. Or you could make it into a study. It's weird, leaving a room bare.

Why? It doesn't hurt anyone, not being in use.

[It's a matter of principle now, even if her logic is shaky. She knows it's unfair of her to be annoyed at his concern; but somehow the impracticality of living alone makes it more desirable, even if rationally it proves nothing, if there's nothing to prove.]

[At least he doesn't seem to have considered the possibility that she might enjoy his company. Perish the thought. Asking him to stay had been a stupid idea, anyway.]

I don't understand why it bothers you so much.

It doesn't bother me, I just... think it's weird. Use it for something else if you're set on living alone. [He gestures with his quarter of a sandwich, eyes exaggeratedly wide at the idea that her solitude should be keeping him up at nights. It does quietly concern him that he might have made the wrong choice, leaving, but he couldn't have stayed on eggshells around her forever. Sometimes it feels like he's walked into the aftermath of a fight he doesn't remember starting.

There's that free apartment on the other side of his and Peter's, but the timing on mentioning that to her would suck, and he's afraid it would come across like pity.]

[She tilts her head a bit at that; call it progress, at least he wasn't demanding she get a roommate, now. Even given the original, abandoned plans of finding someone to share space... Honestly, Cameron likes the second bedroom as it is. Undefined. An open possibility without direction. She could accommodate a roommate if she wanted; doesn't have to feel like she has to find one, as though something set is going to waste. Irrational. She's not going to try explaining that one.]

I couldn't find a one-bedroom.

[Which made sense, given the ticking-- why build apartments that didn't cater to multiple roommates? She pauses to consider what else could be done with the space, takes a bite of her sandwich.]

I don't need a study, and there wouldn't be much point in a guestroom, after all. It's not like people drop by from out of town.

Someone dropping in unexpectedly? Here? Impossible.

[You know, unless you count him and half the rest of Princeton Plainsboro, as well as the regular stream of freaks from far off lands who seem to fall into the fountain on an almost daily basis. Chase raises a knowing (teasing) eyebrow, finishing off his mouthful.]

It's okay to admit your real motives. Hell, I wouldn't want to live with Foreman either.

[She's chewing, but her eyes show the grin, and she laughs a little after she finishes the bite.]

Getting stuck here's a little different.

Stuck here with Foreman.

[Chase is wearing an expression likening this to a fate worse than death as he drowns out the sandwich with more of her mysteriously hard to pinpoint yet definitely fruity flavoured coffee. Leans back and watches her a while.]

Are you missing it yet? Or is every day here still an adventure?

Missing Foreman?

[She arches an eyebrow deviously at that, fingers curling around her cup.]

I can't help but feel that time here is time wasted. I'd like to get back to reality... but, there's not much to do to help that.

[She shrugs, looking down at nothing as she takes a sip of her coffee, not wanting to watch him watch her. Though she doesn't really mind it, and she's still faintly smiling.]

What about you?

[Do you still think you're dying? Of course he must. Sometimes she thinks he might be right, that maybe he's just some manifestation of her subconscious, trying to prod her back towards rationality.]

[Of course he does, but there are stages of thinking you're dying. Chase has flipped back and forth through six of them several times over without ever quite moving on to acceptance, but he's closer to it now than he has been since arriving. Even if that's taken shoving the fear and the confusion somewhere rational thought can't quite reach it.]

I always miss Foreman. Got some of my best sleep in while he was talking.

[He stirs his coffee, eyeing the dubious swirl of incongruous flavours mingling more.]

Maybe you shouldn't waste it.

[She glances up at that, rubbing thoughtfully at the lip of the cup.]

Logically, is there any way not to? I sincerely doubt we'll remember any of our time here, in the real world. So anything we do, anything we learn-- it can only have temporary significance.

[That should be liberating, shouldn't it? Sometimes she feels like it is, though on the whole it just feels like she's getting nowhere.]

My point. [Chase raises his cup in a toast to possibilities.]

If no one remembers what you do here, you could do anything. No consequences. If this place is real then it's a literal tabula rasa for the duration. If it's not real- [He shrugs, gesturing empty circles] Same rule applies. Who are you keeping up appearances to?

That assumes there are appearances to keep up. Just because you could do anything doesn't necessarily mean that you want to.

[It's a sidestep, and something of a lie. She keeps up appearances for her own sake; for his sake, though he doesn't know it. Cameron can't honestly claim she isn't prey to insane urges, from time to time; can't even claim it convincingly. So, she shifts the question back, skepticism evident in her tone.]

Is that how you're looking at it? License to do whatever you like?

There are appearances to keep up.

[Statement. One sidelong glance at Cameron recalls being pressed up against the wall of her apartment, wide, dark pupils looking back at him. It took one sermonising junkie and a brush with disease to push her to that. Not that he suspects there's a drugged up party girl bursting to get out from underneath her lab coat, but they both know there's more than meets the eye.]

I'd like to look at it like that. On the one hand if I tell House to stuff his job here I still end up down on my rent. [Leaning forward, he liberates the spoon from the cooling cup of coffee, tapping the end of it against his lip.] On the other, I've got plenty of free time.

[She manages not to react, which is a reaction in itself. Just because there are no consequences to jumping pretty people doesn't make it a good idea, though. Still, point to Chase, because she can't argue with him.]

I guess if you could find a better prospect... The job isn't the same here. I think that's what I miss, mostly.

I think I'm liking it. [He admits, spoon now flipped and tucked into a corner of his mouth. He has no idea how ridiculous this looks.]

Maybe it's not less insane, but it's at least a different kind. You could pick up a few hours at the hospital. Get away from House for a bit, practice what you actually trained for. More money, too.

Not a bad idea.

[She smiles, not so much at the suggestion as at his chewing on the spoon. It's kind of endearing, in a hopeless way. Though there's some merit to what he says. Cameron often finds herself looking for excuses to be elsewhere, after all. A cat can only provide so much company.]

It's... the same issue of significance, though. It has nothing to do with House. What we do, what he does-- it makes a difference. We do what other doctors can't. That's what I miss.

[She swirls her cup, watching the coffee creep up the sides of it. Here some people can wave a wand and cure diseases, it's hard not to feel irrelevant.]

We made a difference to the kid who forgot to wear his flea collar last week. His liver had about six hours to go before it turned into pate. There might be quicker fixes around but we're still not out of work.

[All this slurred slightly around the silverware, gripped between his teeth but bobbing slightly as he speaks. Gray, stalking the back of the couch, bumps against his shoulder before leaping down to fill the gap between them with purring furball.]

You're significant. You don't have to ride a broomstick or come from the planet Zog. Ask the patients.

[Ask him.]

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