☤ thirty-eight

[as_damaged]

It occurred to me recently that it's almost a year since that monster attacked; which means I've been here over a year. I suppose the date was some time in February; I didn't do anything to commemorate it, or even think about it too much until now.

It's strange though, to think about the passage of time here-- the thought that all of this experience will simply disappear, eventually, when we're allowed to leave. How we choose to lead our lives here is only relevant as long as we remain. I wonder how different I am now from the person I'll be in a year of real time.

Questions without answers, really.

[Private to Angela]

I said it the other day, I know, but-- given that I was cursed... Thank you, again.



[EDIT; off to bed & picking up tags tomorrow dearhearts <3]

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[oshutup.livejournal.com]

Do you have a preference----remembering or forgetting?

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[as_damaged]

I think it's a moot point. I don't believe there's any chance I'd remember.

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[oshutup.livejournal.com]

[ a pause ]

Not believing you will and not wanting to are a bit different.

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[oshutup.livejournal.com]

The monster----the one with all the --- never mind.

Anyway, I don't think you need to commemorate the length of time you've been here. Though it's good to keep track of some sort.

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[as_damaged]

Knowing it's impossible makes it difficult to wish otherwise. I'm not sure I'd want to, it would make it difficult to readjust to reality.

It's surprising, in all honesty, how quickly it's passed. Before I became accustomed to the curses, those days seemed much longer.

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[oshutup.livejournal.com]

I can understand that. That's true.

Well, I'm glad that you've been able to adapt--as much as people can--anything to make things more manageable.

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[as_damaged]

Given time and lacking other options, people can adapt to nearly any situation. The City is particularly frustrating, because of its unpredictability... but I think even that becomes commonplace, even if the specific curses don't.

How long has it been for you, now?

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[thenormalsquint]

You're welcome. I hope you really do like it and you weren't just giving me stoner compliments.

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[as_damaged]

I meant it. It's beautiful. You're very talented.

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[thenormalsquint]

Thank you. I have a digital copy of it if you want that too.

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[as_damaged]

It probably isn't necessary, unless you want to send it. It's too bad there isn't a way to take it home, whenever I do leave.

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[worksmart.livejournal.com]

Until someone from the future shows up.

[worksmart.livejournal.com]

Are you speaking to me?

[as_damaged]

I'm not not speaking to you.

[worksmart.livejournal.com]

I guess that's a start.

[as_damaged]

I still don't approve, either.

[worksmart.livejournal.com]

Who do you approve of less?

[vicodincrutch.livejournal.com]

The fact that we can read here debunks the theory that this is all just a dream. So whatever it is classifies as slightly more real than a dream, leaning to reality.

What would you call real time?

[as_damaged]

The theory that it's a dream stopped appealing to me quite some time ago. I think treating it as a sort of reality, albeit with some qualifications, is the most rational way of dealing with being stuck here.

For my purposes the awareness of a tangible reality outside the one I'm currently in compromises the ultimate reality of time spent here. It isn't real because any change, physical or mental, that occurs here will be undone instantaneously upon exiting the City.

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[undoing.livejournal.com]

Monster?

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[as_damaged]

It was composed of cut hair, apparently.

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[undoing.livejournal.com]

...a hair monster.

[ sadly, not the strangest thing he's heard of or seen. ]

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[as_damaged]

It sounds ridiculous, I know. It managed to break down my door, though.

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[undoing.livejournal.com]

Was it a curse or something that someone else spun into existence?

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[as_damaged]

My understanding is, it was due to the interference of the beings to whom the deities answer.