as_damaged: (//say i left myself with nothing much)
2010-03-09 03:42 pm

☤ thirty-six

[Voice]

Which would be the intelligent thing to do now, are you really letting yourself be guilted into it?
I usually make it a point not to apologize for curses, given the nature of the City and what
The entire point of curses seems to be to make people miserable, why wouldn't you want to mitigate that as much as possible?
Because she didn't do anything! Not really, this whole thing is just an exercise in pointless embarrassment!
happens here; I don't think we should have to feel responsible for actions we didn't willingly take.
Why is it embarrassing? If you think she didn't do anything wrong there's nothing to be embarrassed about, is there?
We shouldn't bring it up at all. It's not like anyone else is going to say they're sorry for what they said.
That being said... Under the circumstances I do want to apologize for Sunday. Not because I meant
That doesn't necessarily mean they aren't. Look at it this way, it's setting a better example than staying silent would be.
What, forgive and forget?
anything I said or did-- I certainly didn't-- but, because I don't want misinformation to be spread.
Apologizing the right thing to do.
Then we can't forgive anyone if they don't, and everyone else was just as pointlessly cruel.
So, I wanted to clarify-- all the... implications I made about my colleagues are entirely false. Dr.
But it wasn't their fault.
It wasn't hers either! How many people called her a whore, or worse?
House and Dr. Wilson are not involved in a relationship, I respect Dr. Cuddy very much as a doctor and
I'm sure none of them meant it.
That doesn't take away the fact that they said it, if we have to apologize so do they.
a woman, and I am sorry for any aggressive or antagonistic behavior I displayed towards any of you.
It doesn't matter if they say it. Maybe they should, but even if they don't, it doesn't mean they meant it.
That's a double standard.
So what? [pause, finally paying attention to the real Cameron again.] That wasn't much of an apology you know...



[ooc; SCREAM sorry if that's impossible to read, they are all kind of talking at once >< First voice is the bitter, uptight, strict and honestly rather humorless Cameron; the other is Cameron's soft, compassionate, stuffed-animal-made-by-grandma side. <3]
as_damaged: (//somebody told me you'd found)
2010-03-07 12:09 pm

☤ thirty-five

|[ Unintentionally 'saved' to the Network ][ ...not entirely sfw. sob ]| )




|[ Delivered Anonymously to Dr. James Wilson ]|
[not work-friendly link]

|[ Delivered Anonymously to Dr. Gregory House ]|
[totally work-friendly link]






[ooc; no offense intended to those who may like particular pairings, but the House fandom is notorious for its shipping wars and Cameron will be defending this to the death. OPINIONS EXPRESSED BY ALLISON CAMERON TODAY DO NOT REFLECT THE VIEWS OF THE MANAGEMENT. She's got some really nasty stuff to say & I apologize in advance.

ALSO, I AM STILL IN CANADA. Expect epic backdating because of this. Please assume the story post went up somewhat later in the day than the gifts. SOB. /runs away to Toronto <3]
as_damaged: (//and here i stand)
2010-02-13 11:07 pm

☤ thirty-three

It really isn't worth trying to avoid these influxes, and I don't feel like wasting the effort.

Who's come by this time?



[ooc; Cam is season 3, I would prefer to minimize explicit spoilers on recent canon but she can forget whatever she needs to ;) Please no duplicates of housecast unless approved by the concerned muns. etc etc. backdating-friendly forever.]
as_damaged: (//martyrdom does not become me)
2010-01-24 03:59 pm

☤ thirty-two

Angela, I really admire the strength of your convictions. You seem to have strong views on what is right and what isn't, and won't be bullied into compromising yourself by anyone. And though it's a vast understatement to say that we haven't always seen eye-to-eye, I do think you're a good person.

House, you are the most brilliant person I've ever had the privilege of knowing. You say and do awful things on a regular basis, but more often than not they're for the right reasons; you'd like everyone to think you're a bad person, but you aren't. You're harder on yourself than most people suspect. I wish you didn't hurt so badly.

Chase... I like you. You're intuitive. You're good with patients. You can be an ass, but I think it's more a matter of defensiveness than anything else. When you care about someone, you care deeply, and you'll run yourself ragged rather than let them down. I might fight with you more than anyone else, but I find it almost impossible to stay angry for long.




[ooc; sporadic comments for a while as i need to eat soon <3]
as_damaged: (//& bruises blue)
2010-01-09 08:38 pm

☤ thirty-one

Given the nature of today's curse, if you injure yourself at all, I'd strongly advise you to go to the hospital. Even a minor scrape or bruise can be deadly if the blood doesn't clot, and in some cases serious damage can be done by an injury that isn't even apparent-- internal bruising and bleeding are more difficult to detect, and therefore all the more serious.

[Hospital / Clinic / Assorted Medical Personnel Filter]

It seems to be the clotting factor that's affected, and introducing more into the deficient system doesn't seem to do anything. So far the best bet seems to be to physically staunch the bleeding as best we can, and order transfusions for those who've lost more fluids...

Unless anyone has found better options?
as_damaged: (//if i sit long enough it all falls)
2009-12-18 10:04 pm

☤ thirty

NICE
-my job

NAUGHTY
-my personal life






[ooc; lsjdfgkdgj fml more tomorrow /still exhausted ;_; <333]
as_damaged: (//we're intimate strangers)
2009-12-13 01:42 am

☤ twenty-nine

[Openest Action that Ever Actioned]

[Cameron is an atheist, but in some ways she's all for the holidays. They're an excuse to be happy. Sometimes you need one. So she doesn't think anything of the Christmas decorations everywhere, on buildings and lampposts, garlands around doorways and lights in the trees. How she makes it into work without being assaulted by smooches is anyone's guess. But she does.

Her luck? Her luck is bound to change, at work, after work, on her way home, wherever you might like to imagine you might encounter her.]


[ooc; SCREAM please. imagine this was hours ago ;_; we've company from out of town so my computer access has not been optimal today |D ilu all. um. open for EVERYONE, srsly, the more the merrier imo >D backdating is likely sob sorry ILOVEYOUPOLY

ETA; 3 am where did you come from. more when i'm awake ;.; <333]
as_damaged: (//mad cows like bumblebees)
2009-12-07 12:57 am

☤ twenty-eight

[Voice]

[In the background there's an intermittent banging of wood on wood.]

Unsurprisingly, these tears aren't what they seem to be.

[Cameron pauses.]

If anyone hasn't gone through yet and is still considering it, I'd advise against doing so. This looks like our world, but I don't think it actually is... judging by the fact that we've still got Network devices here, and the persistence of City knowledge.

Where we actually are is anyone's guess... The doors and windows are sealed, and there doesn't seem to be anyone else nearby.

[The crashing noises stop when she does, to be replaced by a different voice. Chase doesn't seem to be paying attention to her broadcast.]

I think it's budging. Move over there, I'm going to try using the desk.



[ooc; normal color is Cameron, this one is Chase. Please to pretend this was up somuch earlier <3
EDIT i needs sleep i will get back to y'all tomorrows. <3]
as_damaged: (//under your thumb where i've)
2009-11-13 05:50 pm

☤ twenty-seven

[Accidental Audio]

[CRASH.

CRASH.

CRASH. CRASH.


splinter splinter crash. There is heavy breathing in the background.

...crash.]




[ooc; action for Chase and mebbe Angela, and um, anyone who happens to live in their apartments/surrounding apts who might notice the breaking and entering. sob. i don't even.]
as_damaged: (//my isp comforts me)
2009-11-05 06:10 pm

☤ twenty-six

well, why not.

if you know something good is bound to end badly, is it still worth beginning? when does happiness outweigh the risk, the loss?




[ooc; all Cameron's replies will (ofcourse) be anonymous until midnight at which point they will revert to being hers. For my own ease of recordkeeping: courier replies were anon, anything in regular font is written post-midnight. IF FOR ANY REASON YOU WANT TO BACKDATE, please put pre-midnight on your thread <3]
as_damaged: (//keep a'ringin' my bell)
2009-10-31 03:04 pm

☤ twenty-five

[Video for the hell of it]

Considering what I've heard about past years, I guess this isn't so bad.

Happy Halloween.



[ooc; do whatever, preferably no other Camerons, she can forget anything she has to |D ON A SIDE NOTE, regarding icons-- she has not been updated, never fear. She just dyed her hair for lulz & torment. TROLL THE NICE DOCTOR LADY]

[EDIT: out for a paaarty, troll boldly in my absence & I will get back to you <3]
as_damaged: (//but i got the knack)
2009-10-24 04:42 pm

☤ twenty-four

I feel like going out tonight-- it's been a while since I've been out on the town and I could use to relax. Angela, are you free? I was thinking-- a little shopping, maybe a manicure, hit a couple of bars? Nothing fancy, just some fun.

I hope everyone else is doing all right-- it looks to be one of those weekends. It makes me wonder what Halloween's going to be like.
as_damaged: (//& bruises blue)
2009-10-15 08:10 pm

☤ twenty-three

[voice;]

[For a moment there is nothing but quiet panting, someone trying to catch their breath. When she speaks it's in a low tone, stumbling over words. She's clearly just this side of a full panic.]

I figured I'd be fine as long as I just stayed in today, but I guess someone figured out I was at home. Every now and then I can-- [She pauses, and if you listen closely you can hear a heavy pounding in the background.] Can hear them trying to get in. I keep hoping they'll get bored and give up on me but so far...

[Cameron laughs quietly, obviously on edge.]

Midnight can't come quick enough... and it's not even Halloween yet. Can't wait to see what that brings....





[ooc; IT'S A TRAP. come and save her, she will try to eat you, and given that she's been taking self-defense lessons she might have more of a shot than otherwise expected >D If you are okay with being bitten/eaten/killed and tossed in the fridge for later munching, please to let me know ♥ ALSO PLEASE FORGIVE LATE POSTING I HAD A TEST. SOB.]
as_damaged: (//the game has been disbanded)
2009-09-26 01:18 pm

☤ twenty-two

A (Partial) List of Locations.

in no particular order

HOME;
-My apartment (once while high)
-Chase's apartment
-exam room
-patient's house (with cat watching)
-sleep lab
-House's bed
-janitor's closet
-backseat of my car, on the way to lunch
-park bench

CITY;
-exam room
-Chase's apartment
-My apartment
-carousel cart
-elevator of building 12
-stairwell of building 3



I'm forgetting some, I think.


[ooc; We Did That? sob. trying not to be obscene, but be warned she will likely reply in greater detail.

EDIT; LASER TAG, BBL GUYZ ♥]
as_damaged: (//the distance in your eyes)
2009-09-17 03:38 pm

☤ twenty-one

I deal with death on a daily basis. That sounds awfully morbid, but it's true. What I do-- moreso than most doctors, maybe, I'm accustomed to it. We save a lot of people, figure things out at the very last moment; we lose people, too. Sometimes because we can't stop it; sometimes because we're asked to; sometimes due to mistakes, lapses in judgment. You don't get used to it. You get by. Try not to let it happen again. And talking about it doesn't help, not really.

I was a widow before most of my friends even thought about getting married; it wasn't sudden, it wasn't unexpected. I had time to prepare for loss; that didn't make it easier, in the end. You don't get used to it. Even now, what feels like a lifetime, what's certainly a world away, from time to time I'll see a smile that reminds me of his, and it still aches, dull and deep.

At first I thought it wasn't the same, here-- half the people out on the street have died, once or a dozen times, here or at home, and you can hardly tell the difference. It was a strange thought, that maybe what I did didn't matter-- that the stakes had changed and somehow life lost a little value. Things aren't always all right, even when we 'win'... Maybe someone would be better off cold but whole, rather than living on anti-rejection meds, living with a pacemaker or a lost limb. I don't know where you'd draw the line.

Then I was shot.

I wonder sometimes if it'd be easier if I could understand it. If I knew who it was. I know why; it wasn't like I was the only one cursed that day, and I guess that's why I'm still alive. Even so... I think about it more than I like to admit, double-locking the door the moment it's shut. Hearing the echo of footsteps in the hallway.

If nothing else, I understand why it isn't so different, even when people wake up the next morning.

I don't want to-- I don't talk about it, because I shouldn't let a curse have this kind of sway, that much power over the way I feel. It's irrational and stupid, and I should know better. I do know better, but right now I don't have a choice in the matter, I can't stop talking.


[ooc; mostly cursed to talk about her own death here, but also DEATH in general. <3]
as_damaged: (//all my bookcases groan)
2009-08-21 08:23 pm

☤ twenty

[Public, but Flagged to Clinic / Hospital]

I'll be taking a brief vacation. If there's an emergency, let me know. Otherwise I'll be back to work in a few days.




[ooc; feel free to phone or actionspam her, here or on her random stuff post for the next few days, she will be laying low and sulking hating everybody ^^;]
as_damaged: (//my god what have i done)
2009-08-19 08:05 pm

☤ nineteen

[Accidental Video;]

[The view is wavering and poorly focused, the camera on her PDA just barely poking out from a pocket as Cameron walks down a clinic hallway. The lights are dimmed, the exam rooms on either side dark.]

Chase? [She's not bothering to hide the frustration in her tone. She's only here because he isn't answering his phone, even though he paged her. Even though she suspects it's likely some misguided game, the slim chance that it's an actual emergency is enough to lure her down to otherwise closed clinic.]


Here. [The answering voice, and the hope in it, is weak but audible. On the floor of one of the exam rooms, Chase has managed to elevate his leg with the help of a chair. The amount of blood soaking through his pants and pooling on the floor suggests this is a recent development.] C-Cameron? In here.


What is-- [The question dies with a gasp as she marches in upon the scene, shocked into a moment's pause before training, habit, takes over. The view shakes as she rushes to grab something off a countertop-- a bundle of gauze, something clean to apply pressure-- and kneels next to him, heedless of the mess.] What happened?


[He's been applying pressure himself, tie pulled off to make a crude tourniquet. A last resort move, but it's obvious he wouldn't have gotten far in this state. Shaky and sweating, pale as a ghost, he lets himself fall back as she takes over.]

Came off my bike when I was s-six. Severed... popliteal. [He twitches, swallowing hard to force his jaw into unclenching.] Would have called House. Didn't... think I had... time.


It just... opened up? [She doesn't look up at him, fingers shifting over his leg, trying to get a sense of the damage, pressing the gauze on top of his soaked trouser leg, unwilling to risk pulling or cutting it away, lest it make the damage worse. She presses as hard as she can, trying to keep the artery against the bone, above where she judges the break to be.]


It was Eden. For God's sake, Cameron. [He doesn't have much of a voice left, and still less colour in his face, words hissed through teeth that won't ungrit.] ...Help.


[Cameron doesn't reply, bending to peek between her fingers to see how much blood has seeped through. Too much. One hand still curled firmly around his leg to keep pressure, she reaches up to press her fingers against his wrist, feeling for his pulse.]

I'm calling the ER. [The camera view jostles as she shifts back, obscured by the shadow of her hand as Cameron reaches for the pocket it's sticking out of.] I can't staunch the bleeding, and you're hypovolemic. You need a transfusion, and I can't move you mys--

[The transmission cuts off midsentence as Cameron turns off the device, never noticing it was recording.]




[ooc; speech color = Chase, Cameron. all network replies will come after Chase is out of her hands and in more stable condition. ♥ ♥ ♥]
as_damaged: (//my isp comforts me)
2009-07-25 07:49 pm

☤ eighteen

[Posted ANONYMOUSLY;]

Anywhere else, this would be a philosophical question. Here I'm sure some of you can speak from experience.

Given the chance to get a look at your future-- assuming that under the circumstances, that knowledge doesn't grant you the ability to change it-- would you want to know?

If you do know-- would you rather you didn't?



[ooc; please assume all replies to be anonymous, &c &c. ♥ she's just curious and passing the time]
as_damaged: ([Young] the distance in your eyes)
2009-07-11 11:44 am

☤ seventeen

[AUDIO;]

Whoa...

[There's a long pause, and then some fumbling as she realizes she has an unfamiliar electronic thingy with her. Well, when in Rome.]

Um...
Hello? Can anyone hear this?



[ooc; age reversed for the hell of it~ she's 19ish, idk. in college, but not married yet ♥ fffff will be slow while i finish making some more icons~]